Been working away from home for a couple weeks, travelling a lot and not therefore posting on a regular basis. But I have been listening in the car to some of these ‘self transformation’ calls with inspirational teachers that you get via websites like manifesteverythingnow.com and youwealthrevolution.com. Sign up at your peril, your email inbox will be flooded. Why do I find myself there? Obviously because I’m led there, partly in truth because I’m a sucker for their promises of wealth and abundance… which just don’t seem to be working. Can’t understand why. I’m a pure, perfect, powerful being, right? I am Magnificent Me, right? I am everything and everything is me, so gold, silver, diamonds and all manner of abundance should be flowing right in, through and out of me again. Right, Mr Taxman?
Doh… somehow, not. Which in itself is a negative thought. Which right there is a crime against the law of positivity, the Law of Attraction even – cardinal sin of the 21st century, to flout the LoA – which only serves to ensure that whatever I don’t want (lack) will continue to be my fate. Which seems somehow unfair really, when I’m working so hard to get all my vibrations and energies and whatnots in alignment with the Universe.
I jest, of course. No disrespect to these many powerful and eloquent teachers, some of whom, let’s say, I find easier to follow than others. Rikka Zimmerman, bless her heart, left me more than a little bemused (‘I mean, when you judge, do you feel like you?’ Er… yes?). That is one high lady, for damn sure, but I couldn’t remotely hook on to her message. She seems to be saying, as above, that I am everything and everything is me. Which I guess you have to be very high indeed to feel as Truth, because it makes no sense to me at all. I can sort of get why people come to conclude that God is everywhere and in everything, because of the simple connection between Pran, Life Force, Ch’i – the physical force of the universe, call it Love if you like – and the spiritual energy that is the Soul. But to understand my Self as but an ingredient of the Cosmic Soup – if that’s the correct interpretation Rikka, sorry if I’ve missed the point – really doesn’t play with me. Or am I the whole cosmic soup, and is therefore the whole cosmic soup also everybody else and everything else on earth and in heaven, from neutrinos and microbes to rivers of mud to the newly fallen dew to large industrial meat processing installations (for example)? Or are we sort of like meatballs in said Cosmic Soup, with an individual identity yet nevertheless part of the whole recipe? Because surely we have to find a way of understanding our Selves as individual entities? Otherwise how would we have individual karma? If Abundance is me, why aren’t I feeling it? What am I doing wrong or not doing right? Where am I failing? Never mind abundance, this is more like A Bun Dance, or perhaps a Bagel Breakdown. A Pastry Pirouette, perhaps. Nonsense, in other words. And very counter productive.
But I did get a bit of a breakthrough listening to Derek Rydall – who also, of course, it has to be said, is offering his self transformation teaching package via youwealthevolution.com, usually worth $997, for a knockdown deal of only $97. But he makes more sense than I have heard in along while, and what’s more, he speaks with a real understanding of the dramatic power of language, which I respond to every time. His Law is the Law of Emergence. More on that – and much else around this whole abundance thing – to come.